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Quite, Quite, Quiet [30 Apr 2009|03:07pm]
Shadow

Wires

End-Table

Dresser

Doorway

Candle

Step

Birds

Kitchen

Window Light

Layer

Post

Steven

Roger

Trail

Chair

Tool

Glass

Ceiling

Warehouse

Convention

Grafiti

Resort

Trees

Walkway

Condominium

Float

Shanty

Perch

Motel

Chair

Window

McDonalds

Seven-Eleven

Stacked

Nest

Awning

Vines

Bird

Gary

Jeanelle

Jeanelle

Scrim
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quiet quite quiet [24 Apr 2009|01:19pm]
Restaraunt

Lamp

Umbrella

4x5

Shadows

Marks

Sign

Lifeguard Stand

Blinds

Apple

Neighbor

Layered

Jrrd

Lucus
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[24 Dec 2008|01:05pm]
i care about a lot of people, it would just be naive to think that things don't change.

i'm just not in the loop anymore.
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[20 Dec 2008|11:24am]
the past doesn't repeat itself. everything is always new and exciting if you can pay attention to the details.

i wonder how all my old friends are doing.
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Fall 2008 Portfolio number 1 [14 Dec 2008|11:38pm]
Jeanelle-Steven-Strobe

Jrrd-Do-Not-Bend

Jrrd-Light-Table

Jrrd's-Smoke-Screen

Jrrd's-Yellow-Gloves

Lucky-Hair-Cut

Red-White-and-Blue

Studio-Natalie-Marks-Tyson

Two-Ciggy-Morning

Unbalenced-Jack-and-Tiffany

Dicerned-Crows(More-Crows)

Dad's-Backyard-Robe

Brantley-Liz-Frankenstein
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[26 Oct 2008|01:35pm]


Robbie


Robbie

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[12 Aug 2008|12:09am]
dear diary,

i cry in front of strangers. i am sexually active. i smoke cigarettes and use drugs recreationally. i am affected. i am not bullet-proof. i am solid, but not rigid, and fluid like sand. free love. intercourse. primal. obsessed. liberated. nervous.

what a year. sincerely, zaki jarrah.
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[18 Jun 2008|12:50am]
flip flop in the studio with jack.

l_e4720350f8d813f4277181da640f753c
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[14 Jun 2008|02:39pm]
i am in lakeland until tuesday.
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[06 Jun 2008|04:04pm]
i think the struggle is important. i think being at odds with contentment and glorifying the struggle is an easy groove to fall in. It makes us meander while idolizing what we don’t know; and in the end, i think there’s always an air of longing for the unknown. I’m positive that that mind state cripples us in the middle; too anxious to stand still, too nervous to wander someplace completely foreign. so we’re trapped in the middle while happiness waits at either end.
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[27 May 2008|08:04pm]
zaki-type-79

ste-type-79

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studio [01 May 2008|02:07pm]
ray bans and monarch

studio snoots

wide-eyed and butterfly lit
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[14 Apr 2008|09:26pm]
it's fun being alive. i think because everything is still such a mystery.

eerie

cyan

the-shrubs
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[21 Mar 2008|04:22pm]
just to clarify; i feel like some people feel offended.

i don't know it all. in general, i don't really know anything, meaning i can only speak for myself (which is all anyone can ever do). i knew what i felt and i said it, and now it seems like i am some punchline. it seems like everyone all-of-a-sudden thought i was saying i'm above what they were choosing to do and became defensive, so people are making jokes about me, just like everyone did to meredith. i don't know if that's true, but it kind of seems like it.

i'm not better or smarter than anyone else.
i'm not a different person.
i don't see any of my friends differently.
what i say is not supposed to affect anyone.
i'm not trying to convince anyone of anything.
i'm not putting anyone or anything down.

everything is exactly the same, i make my choices, meredith makes her choices, wade makes his choices, stephan, stephanie, jt, eddie, poppy, brantly, corey, kyle, jeremy, all the way down the line.

we all just want to get happy.
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[16 Mar 2008|08:45pm]
i'm pretty sure that after i finish my education in daytona, i'm going to join my brother on the west coast. i'm going to teach and get some fine art schooling and maybe get a BFA from a thirty-something-thousand-dollars-a-year school. i'll be broke, but happy.

and there the sun doesn't swell up so wearisome in the sky.

my parents are moving to oregon. we'll be a family reborn.

i have no reason to believe that salvation waits for me, but everyday i am more devout to my ambitions and feel less fear and doubt.
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things are different [13 Mar 2008|11:42pm]
i feel bad. i feel badly about the fizzle; the dissolution. i feel worse about the indifference. i've always assumed something drastic would splinter me from my friends. a period; not an ellipsis. it had to end. everything does. everything i adapt to will end. i was just as sure that i would marry meredith as i was that friends were permanent. only this time, i don't know who ended it.

i feel bad, but i know i shouldn't.

nothing ends without becoming something else.

i feel just as fulfilled now as i did in georgia. the only cause of feeling bad is believing that i should. the trap of logic. the pitfall of seeing an end as a loss. seeing natives fade without seeing unfamiliar abundance. to notice the present evolve into memories. things that were once three dimensions lose all their dimensions and exist only in nostalgia.

it's not bad. it's not good.
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[09 Mar 2008|08:31pm]
i'm in lakeland.

is there anyone to hang out with?
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more c-prints from my second visit to the color darkroom. [08 Mar 2008|11:53pm]
c-print no.3

c-print-no.-2

i want to know how to do everything really really really well. and the photographic process always seems to surprise me in the most wonderful ways.

i could feel like i am drowning, but, really, i just feel embraced.
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[06 Mar 2008|11:37pm]
i made my very first c-prints today, and after only a few hours i can already see colors more clearly.

bad scan of my first c-print
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[02 Mar 2008|12:39am]
i've made myself pretty segregated from everyone i used to know.

i dont know what it is about allowing myself to become alienated that makes me feel unwanted. i feel like a pariah. brantley is the only friend i have.

and i feel pathetic. but comfortable.

zkj1

righttriangle(scannednegative)

romanceisinthesmoke

georgia-river-bedwith-dome-eye

JPC-emulation
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